Egg sharing

Went yesterday for our appointment with the consultant. The protocol seems the same as last time - 21day protocol where they treat me like a car, strip everything out, clean it ll up, soup up the engine and hopefully restore everything with a few new parts included. I'll balloon like a whale, and feel utterly revolting, but hey - you go through what you have to in order to get where you want to go, right?

I finally had a question put to me yesterday that I've been thinking about for weeks now. What if I only produce enough eggs for one person, what will I do with them? I had already decided I'd give everything to the recipient - after all, it's not fair, once something has been agreed, to go back on your word, plus I couldn't do it to her. She will have been on drugs running alongside me, so her body will be prepared to receive an embryo - so to get that far and for me to say 'you know what, I'm keeping half the stuff you need' for me, is just plain wrong. I have eggs, I can wait a few months and go again if I have to (even though it's far from ideal), but she would have to wait for someone else to agree to donate. Frankly she'll have been through enough as it is, I'm not adding to the heartache.

I told DH what I'd decided, and he rightly pointed out he thought it was going to be a joint discussion - I felt marginally guilty, it hadn't even occurred to me he wouldn't feel the same way, and luckily he agrees with me.

Now we just keep our fingers crossed that everything goes well. I am nervous - of course I am, who wouldn't be?

7miles high

Well, we've now been married 3weeks! I can't believe we actually did it - moreso because the whole day is a bit of a blur and we're still struggling to claw back memories of it! We have the photos, which are great, now all we're waiting for is the DvD from the videographer, which will be nice to see as I think we both respectively missed so much!

Things are different, in a nice way - I didn't think it was possible for us to feel closer, but we definitely are, subtle difference, but still differences. :)

I also got my test results back from CARE as well, and I'm eligible to donate. They've also matched me up with a recipient! I am now excited and nervous and we'll see what our next appointment brings!